Long Overdue

Hi it’s me- Helen!!! 

I’m going to start writing and see where it goes. I haven’t forced myself to write in quite some time. Almost two years. I find such joy in typing out whatever comes to mind and also love the sound of my fingers hitting the keys. Sometimes I get fixated on what the message of the post is, but quite frankly to get back into it I simply need to start. 

I am very content with where I am at in life. I am proud of where I’ve come and where I will go. There is so much on the horizon for me it’s just the beginning. I live in Atlanta and am currently in my third year. It is absolutely wild that I am living my life here. The person I was when I first moved here and the woman writing this out now are not the same. My confidence has skyrocketted. The love that I have for myself has grown tremendously within the past five years, but the past year wow oh wow. I am a NEW woman. The growth that I have made in the gym is evident. I workout about three to four times a week. I do it before work so my endorphins are flooding as soon as I sit down at my desk. My arms look toned, my ass and legs wow, and for the first time everrrrrr I have some abs. There isn’t a huge definition in my abs but I’m close. It’s so beautiful to see the progress. 

I am so in my cooking girl era. Before I entered my cooking era, I was big on delivered meal kits.  Then the new year rolled around and one of my goals was to cook meals that I had discovered. I even realized that I loved cooking plant based meals. Tofu was an item I had researched how to properly cook up until recently. For example today I picked some fresh tomatoes at the market and I decided to make a caprese salad. It was scrumptious and my first time ever making it, thankfully not the first time I tried it. I love being able to cook more meals myself. I’m learning a lot. Some of my favorite meals I’ve learned are tofu coconut curry, pasta primavera, rice paper rolls, and all different types of overnight oats. I can’t wait to further my skills and maybe one day cook for and with someone. 

I have even gotten back into reading. I think a huge reason was because of my bestie boo Ash, on our weekly calls she’d talk about a book she was reading. The book that really propelled me to want to read more was The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins Reid. It was captivating, representing of bisexual individuals, and beyond beautiful. My book genre then transformed to be biographies. I am currently reading Born a Crime by Trevor Noah. My mom had given it to me after she read it. I’m blown away by how fast I’m reading it. I’ve found joy reading on my commute to and from work. It makes the journey fly by so fast. It disconnects me from my phone, music, and social media. I’m excited to continue to read more and eventually clear out my spot where I have ‘to be read’ books. Slowly but surely I’ll read them and then it’ll fill back up. 

I’ve also learned the joy of being one with myself and unapologetically about it. For example it is a Saturday evening- I had thought plans were for tonight but next weekend. Which I’m thankful for. Instead of stressing out about not having something to do. I’ve made time for activities that I push to the side. I need to create more random topics or quick updates to get myself writing. Today I was on my beloved timehop app and 3-4 years ago I received a message on Tinder (Rip to before I was banned) from a guy talking about how he went to my instagram then my website and couldn’t get enough of the posts I had written. His last message he sent was that he realized I hadn’t written in a while and hoped that I wouldn’t stop. I’ve written pieces here and there since, but nothing continual. Acknowledging that message I want to write more. I want to be more intentional about the website I have. I want to enjoy it or else why do I pay for it?! 

With that  being said I have comfortably reached a full page worth of content and that seems like the perfect place to stop. I’m quickly going to proof read it then boom finally upload a post. 

I AM THRIVING. I AM HAPPY. I LOVE MY LIFE. I LOVE ME. I LOVE YOU. WE ARE GOING TO DO AND BE TREMENDOUS THINGS IN THIS LIFE. IT’S JUST THE BEGINNING. 

XOXO, 

Helen