Changes

Growing up sucks. I have always felt alone. I remember countless days and nights when I was younger living at my parents house looking out my bedroom window wondering all that was beyond the city I knew.

The hope that I had given myself was all I had. I don’t have much else. That younger version of myself is what I have to keep living for. It is what drives me.

Now I have lived in two cities within one state. I need something more. I wish I had taken the plunge and moved away to a new city right after I had gratuated and taken my three month vacation. I never did actually have a plan as to where I wanted to end up on a larger scale. The posibilites are endless.

I need a city with more life. Better airport with better flights out of the country. New streets. New restaruants. New music scence.

I am nowhere man (woman).

I am hopeful for what lays ahead. I can’t wait for a new beginning. I may still feel alone, but who knows maybe this time will be when I truly do find myself.

Who knows maybe I’ll even end up alone all together.

I am changing because I am working on refocusing my time into myself. I really do want someone that is all about me, shit must be amazing. Cherish that.

Until I find someone who hits what I want, I need to focus on me. It’s exhausting to hope for more and get nothing. Why does the time I invest have to be invalidaded?Time is all we got.

As I have for the past few months, dwelled on all the time wasted/forgetten. I can now refocus it on the time I will now not be wasting on people who can forget me.

With new lessons of better self love and new changes on the horizon the next few months will be better.

p.s. A$AP Rocky & J Cole both have a song titled Changes so obiv goats …. so does 2pac…. WAIT BUT THE SONG THAT REALLY IS ABOUT CHANGES IS BY H.E.R. UGH I LOVE THAT SONG

CAPS IS FUN. ARCHITECTURAL LETTERING IS FUN. ITS CLEAR. ITS TO THE POINT. IF YOU READ THIS FAR…. WHY?

I really just got a new keyboard so I can type on my phone and idk it’s fun. I can now blog at any moment of any day.

Change is on the horizon and so is a kick ass sunset.