Why

My one question always is -

  • Why start seeing/seeking me if you have another woman?

What was wrong with your other women that you had to start with me?

I don’t meet men and seek out ones who are dating other women. I hope that they have enough respect for the women and relationship to say they’re taken. If they don’t make it clear, how exactly am I supposed to know. Not all men struggle with this but some do. If a man acts single, that’s what he wants his image to be. You couldn’t convince me otherwise.

However unfortunate, I’ve been swept up in dealing with multiple men who can’t fully say to me where they stand or where they stand with other women (even though this tends to be easier).

It sucks. The joke is always played on me. Did you ever want me or was it just to see what your other women was lacking?

I place them on a higher pedestal thinking that they deserve to be there when in reality the situationship has been nothing but me being hopeful. Hopeful that no matter how long we see each other, one day everything will change. I’ll be the one they want.

Up until now I only viewed a relationship as monogomous. However now having had threesomes with both men and women, I see that you can also have a polygamous relationship. I’m interested in that since you get the best of both worlds.

I never thought of myself to ever be with a woman, but now having been so I learned to love women more. We are all something unique. I appreciated what she was and what I was. It was something beautiful that I didn’t expect to learn. Its something you can’t learn with a male since there are inhert differences.

My jealousy of wishing to be the other women turned into I see why someone would want to be with them. However that feeling can only go so far. Inherently there will always be two people who have known each other longer.

I’ve had a childhood friend throw away our relationship for his girlfriends even though he was asking to have sex (they aren’t together now). I’ve had men who actively hid their relationship throw it in my face.

With all having ended in me being left it always still makes me wonder…

Why. Did. You. Start. With. Me ?

If you want a monogomous relationship- make it clear. To everyone. The fast food driver to your coworkers to your significant other. Show them off.

If you want to be in a polygamous relationship then lovely but make sure everyone knows that. Not just some of the women you see.

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